Recently, I’ve been feeling really down and rubbish. I’ve been trying to pinpoint exactly why I’ve been feeling so rubbish and I think I’ve finally done that. The other night I sat down with Shaun and cried my eyes out about how I’m feeling. Talking about it and saying it out loud made me realise what I want.
As every other child does, I went to school and studied for my GCSE’s. I’ve always strived on success and doing well so achieved a mixture of A and B grades. My favourite subject at school was always Graphic Design and I decided to study this at college as well.
I started college in 2008 where I studied A-Levels in Geography, Graphic Design and Photography. Being creative has always been a passion of mine since I was a young child so these lessons were perfectly suited. Once I finished my A-levels I stayed on at college and did an Art foundation in Graphic Design to prep me for my degree. In 2011 I headed off to university and studied Graphic Arts. I went to Buckinghamshire New University which is about 30 minutes away from London by train.
Throughout university, nearly all of my projects consisted of making things by hand. I used mixed media such as paints, marbling, collage etc. Next, I scanned things onto a computer to digitally edit. Towards the end of my degree, I realised that my passion laid much more in the area of crafts rather than digital design. When I finished my degree I made the decision to move back home to Devon. Most Graphic Design jobs are in the big cities … but that wasn’t for me. I like the quieter life in Devon, so I moved home.
When I moved back home, I realised that getting a design job in little old Devon is near impossible. So I decided to get a job in administration to earn some money whilst I decided what I wanted to do. Forward on to today, I’m still working the exact same administration job!! I HATE IT. Every day is such a chore, it’s so so boring and I think I feel that way because I need to be doing something creative.
So what do I want in the future?
Whilst working my Monday – Friday office job I’ve been using my evenings and weekends to be creative. Afterall, creativity has always been where my passion lies. I started making handmade cards to sell to family and friends which is something I’ve always loved, I received a sewing machine for my birthday and I’m learning to sew. I’ve been getting back into my photography again, I’ve been crafting Christmas decorations and I’ve even started a bullet journal. I guess this blog counts as well, as it’s the perfect way to be creative. My next challenge is to learn modern calligraphy!
With so much creativity in my life, I’ve realised that that’s what I want to be doing on a permanent basis. I don’t want to just spend my evenings being creative, I want my days to be fuelled with creativity as well.
My dream is to have my own little business where I can sell handmade cards and decorations and crafty bits and pieces. I want this more than anything. I would love to open my own Etsy shop to sell my creations and spend all of my days doing what I love.
My plan of action
Well, it’s not a full-blown plan of action as it’s such a difficult thing to just do and be successful…. but this is my idea.
I’m about to buy a house, so quitting my job is an absolute no-go until my mortgage is sorted. The work on the house is going to cost an arm and a leg so this all has to be my priority for the moment. The house we’re buying has 3 bedrooms, so the plan is for the box room to become my craft room. Once I have my craft room up and running, I’ll have a lot more space. This should make creating a whole lot easier. I’ll also have a lot more time as currently, I spend half of the week at Shaun’s house, but all of my crafty stuff is at my house. Having my own house and space means I’ll have unlimited time to create.
I plan to continue to make and create, but I want to do it in a larger quantity. Once I have enough bits and pieces made I’ll take the leap and open an Etsy shop and see what happens from there.
I really hope that eventually my hard work will pay off and I can quit my job and earn a living doing what I love. I know it’ll be a lot of work but I’m determined to make it happen. Even if my hobby meant I earnt enough that I could go to part-time working, I know I’d be so much happier.
I feel like money is the main thing holding me back as unfortunately, we all need to pay the bills and live. I can’t just up and quit my job as I won’t have enough money to live from.
Has anyone else been in this situation? How did you overcome the issue of money and manage to do what you love?